Hidup Uhlala.

When i say no, i feel guilty.
I always confront within myself because of this,
But actually I know we had the right to choose our own happiness first.
But why, with the choices that we can make, i barely choose mine. Hurm.

The truth is i could say no. And most importantly I also had the right not to explain why I was saying no. As simple as short as that.

Frankly all my life I had been a people-pleaser. I thought everyone had to like me and approve me, or I was doing something wrong. But my first responsibility was to myself. And that trying to please everyone else was an impossible task doomed to failure anyway.

So here I was sobbing in my room, alone. I could not even stand up for me. Even for my thought. And my right. And my avidity. And my decision. And all. And my all to you alls.


Aku sungguh Marah. Ini sungguh Bastard. Maaa, tengok diorang ni.~